I feel I have to be converted again

I FEEL I HAVE TO BE CONVERTED AGAIN!!…I mean…I have been Christian the most part of my life. I think I was saved when I was little and I always being in church, living my world, taking care of my own spirituality, learning verses of the bibles, knowing all hymns , going every possible convention and meeting church had.

Right or wrong I was always trying be good…I mean… I was sincere in following Jesus..I was trying to show the world how good I was and how bad they needed the Gospel of Jesus. However, it  seemed that they were never impresses by my life anyway and I really I did not care much.  I thought I was right and they were SO wrong!..They were the blind ones and I could see. They needed to come to my church and join me so I could show them how can they love God as I thought I was. They were in their way to hell and I was going to heaven and I was happy about it.  I knew Jesus and I had my little community church to support me and to build me up in every area of my life. I was also involved in ministry since I was young in my little church my father started. So,  I tried so bad to build my own leadership skills, going to every seminary or conference about leadership and reading all kind of books about how to lead people and how to impress people so they can follow me…I mean I was thinking always in me me me…

I WAS SO WRONG!!! after more that forty years of Christianity I am learning now that being a Christian is NOT about how good I am or how bad they are. I am learning now that being a leader is NOT about how can I impress people so they can follow me.

I am learning today that being a Christian is about THEM. How good I take care of people. How good I can make people feel good about themselves. Do I make them feel that they are important to me? Or I want to look important to them. Do I make people feel welcomed around me? Or I want to be welcomed for them?

I am learning now that being a Christian or doing ministry is about being people, trying to reach people just being people! Us Christians we live in our own world or church and when they come to our church we push them away with our actions. We ignore them. We don’t CONNECT with them because we are blind. We can’t see the necessity of that person. We can’t see  his or her hunger of relationship and love.

I am learning today that being a Christian or doing ministry is about RELATIONSHIP. When I go to church just to get feed and then I go home to keep going with my own life and I don’t see if a new person came to church or if there is somebody that need somebody say hi to him or her, I am neglecting RELATIONSHIP.

I am learning today that being a Christian or doing ministry is about being aware that the world is hurting and we Christians we have the solution, and so many times we don’t share what we have because we are so occupied in ourselves YES!! I FEEL I NEED TO BE CONVERTED AGAIN!

I thank God for my church SEFC! We are learning how to serve people, We are learning how to connect and get involved with people. We are learning the vital of relationship in people. We are learning how to be the hands and the feet of Christ.

It is NOT an easy path…Many many years of wrong doing does not change that quick! We need to be INTENTIONAL in our desire to grow and to minister. God help us! At the end of time we will hear Jesus say: ‘Well done, good and faithful servant; you have been faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your lord.’ Mathew 25:23